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Thursday, August 18, 2005
Oh So Weary...
I've been pondering what to post and decided I should just be honest. This week and the last few have been pretty wearing on me.

I think some of you know that I had scoliosis really badly as a young teenager. I wore a back brace from the time I was 12 until I was 15, when they decided that the degree of the curve was progressing steadily enough to warrant surgery. So I had surgery where they put what is called a Harrington rod along my spine to straighten it out and grafted a piece of bone from my hip over it. I gained two inches in height! And for several years, no problems. Some pain off and on but nothing major.

A few years ago, I went for a checkup with my orthopedic doc because I was having some discomfort and he said I was starting to develop stenosis (narrowing) of the spine and something called flatback syndrome. A lot of people who had Harrington rod surgery in the 70s, 80s and even early 90s are now being diagnosed with this. They only used one rod then (now they use two or more) and it didn't allow your spine to flex except where the rod isn't and your lumbar area gets flat instead of curved. As with most things, I put this information aside and went on like I was completely normal (haha, I know!)

Two years ago, though, I was simply walking through the parking lot at work when something popped in my back. I ended up in the ER and got some pretty strong meds. I went back to physical therapy for a while and actually ended up needing an epidural injection. But then the pain went away (pretty much)...until a few weeks ago when it came back full force. I was out of work for almost an entire week and now am back in pt again. : ( And the joy of pt is that they (a) often don't know what in the world to do with me (though I think this therapist does) and (b) hurt me a lot in the beginning before I start to get better.

So, I am walking around feeling like an 80 year old woman and it makes me mad. It makes me mad that I can't do simple stuff like weed or wash my kitchen floor. It makes me mad that I have to have people help me with things like that.

I joined a yahoo group about flatback syndrome and while people there are really nice, when I read the files of their stories I started to freak out and had to stop. I want to be the exception to what seems to the norm - ending up with revision surgery, six months of rehab, etc.

And then I get upset because I know my "stuff" is nothing compared to others and I should not be complaining! I look at Ruben(Each Day Counts) and his struggles with his illness, yet he is always encouraging other people. I look at my Caringbridge kids...some of whom may not make it to this time next year. I think about the scare my friend had with her daughter this morning and all the other people struggling in this world...

Who am I to complain???? I think if I could just get a good night's sleep, it would help immensely!

    posted at 2:16 PM

At 8/19/2005 12:32 AM, Blogger Shannon said...

I believe we are all allowed 'weary' days, as long as we don't stay there. I will pray for peace in your heart, strength in your back and the rest for your body! I am always lifted up after reading Psalms and Proverbs. Hope it helps!

At 8/19/2005 9:11 AM, Blogger Tricia said...

Thank you, Shannon. I appreciate the prayers - greatly! And you are right about Psalms and Proverbs. I need to focus on that instead of all of this. : )

At 8/20/2005 5:42 PM, Blogger Ex-playgroup mommy said...

You have an absolute right to complain. I know that things could be worse and but I do feel that we also need to acknowledge the "pains" we feel in life. You know that it could be worse and you are thankful for what you have. You also help others who are in need. You certainly make up for your "weary" days. I've had back issues since my pregnancy w/ Emma. Nothing compared to you of course, but I can tell you that it's one of the only things that has actually made me feel old. I'm know having knee problems and I hate the fact that I struggle getting up from playing w/ the kids, that I can't carry them upstairs, that I can't take them for walks, but I am ever so grateful for what I do have! Thanks for sharing!

At 8/21/2005 9:46 PM, Blogger Tricia said...

I think you are right! Sometimes it is good to acknowledge our pains in life...I think it helps to get it out there. And I know your comment & Shannon's helped me, Paula!


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