But I think I might do this.

Why I get my second wind (and get hungry) at about 10:45 PM every night
Why some of my books aren't selling on the auction site
Why my shipping options didn't come up like I thought and I had to field a billion questions in that regard yesterday
Why Norman must whine every night at the basement door
Why some people thrive on doing everything at the last minute
Why some people don't understand why I don't thrive on doing things at the last minute
Why my neighbor makes so much noise
Why I insist on hitting snooze about 6 times each morning instead of just setting my alarm later
Why I hit the snooze 6 times and then am ALWAYS late
Why the laundry doesn't wash itself
Why the kitchen floor doesn't wash itself
Why I can never remember what time WindTunnel is on
What the Red Army do with all their gear when Jr's new ride is green (but at least I'll be able to wear his gear without promoting beer now - not a good idea when you are teaching Sunday School!)

Friday was a bad day - my finances have gone south again and I was feeling desperate for some way to rectify the mess. I put it all aside last night for a party with my youth and that was a great time. We had a lot of cool things planned that the torrential rains put a damper (haha) on but I think everyone had fun anyway.

It was late until I went to bed and then I slept in this morning. I had high hopes of doing some heavy cleaning today but I could not get myself motivated. I finished The Time Travelers Wife (though you'll have to wait for that review, because I am simply not up for it at the moment.) I finally got myself into the shower and moving around 4 PM; did some errands, cooked a meal for someone at church and made my dinner...then I half-hearted cleaned and put out the fall decorations.

And then I decided that I had to do something about the finances and put 21 books up for sale on eBay. I hate selling books but I feel like these are books I can part with without too much distress...now I just have to pray they sell.

Then I started searching for part-time work from home options. I've seen a couple things that are interesting and a few that do not seem at all worth my while. We shall see where this leads...

I am at a loss. I want to write but don't know what to write about. The church women's retreat was great, well-received and all that. But I tend to focus on the two (out of 21) negative comments that were received. I know I shouldn't but I can't seem to rewire my brain. Can you rewire your brain?

Sometimes I feel like the best thing to do is a complete brain dump...so I can sleep...getting all these random thoughts and concerns out of my head. Then I think, no, I need to find something interesting or entertaining or even a little bit funny to entertain my two readers.

Tonight the brain dump wins.

1. I am worried about a friend.
2. I am worried about some of my kids.
3. I am praying and praying. And wishing there was something I could do.
4. I wish I had a financial cushion to make doing what I want easier. But I do not and I need to be creative in stretching funds while still having fun.
5. I have a free Saturday - what's that about? Wow.
6. How ridiculous is it to wake up and immediately start thinking about when you can go to sleep again? I wake up that way every day. But here I am at nearly midnight blogging.
7. My dad is on a flight from Singapore that is 18 hours. He's been gone 15 days. He will be glad to get home. I hope he can sleep some on the plane.
8. I have to book some travel tomorrow before I miss my window. These will not be 18 hour flights.
9. I haven't read since Sunday. But on Sunday, I sat down and read "The Choice" by Nicholas Sparks in one sitting. Review to follow.
10. I started "The Time Traveler's Wife" but am not getting into it. I have been told that it will capture me. We shall see.
11. I am having dinner with my dear friend whose wedding I couldn't go to. I am looking forward to seeing her and hearing how everything was.
12. The weather is changing, for which I am thankful. I am not thankful for the way it makes my body hurt. And I don't want to take my medicine. I did last night and literally could not get out of bed this morning. I was so late to work.
13. I am always late to work.
14. I am feeling unmotivated in many areas of my life. This is not good.
15. I need a vacation. Maybe I need to setup a separate blog where people can make donations toward alleviating my debt so I could go on vacation - ha! Actually, someone else (probably more than one someone) did this and raised enough to pay off her debts. How in the world?????

Things that make you go hmmmm...

For some reason, I am feeling very blue tonight. It's one of those things I can't quite put my finger on, just a pervasive feeling.

Sometimes I wish I was one of those dreadfully cheerful folk who always look on the bright side and always act like things are rosy and wonderful in their corners of the world.

But then I don't truly believe that they are wonderfully happy all the time...not really.

So is it better to be true but blue?

...that I come online to do two simple things but end up surfing for over two hours and NOT doing what I came on to do. Egads - I do so have ADD.

The weekend was a great success! I finished 51...yes, 51 pages! I finished the scrapbook for my friend (one Christmas present down!)and through 2001 in the life album. Now I have to do some serious power layouts to get my act together for the next scrapbooking event. Can't wait!

Now I am working on trying to keep my house somewhat cleaned up and get ready for our upcoming women's retreat for church. There are a lot of little details that need to be finalized this week. I like things to look flawless to everyone else...which I hope they do!

How does my house explode so quickly? It was all nice and clean over the weekend and now it looks like I never did a thing. It is very discouraging, especially when I am down and out with this crazy pain. It is slightly improving, I must admit, though I was sidelined by a leg cramp in the middle of the night last night which is also now paining me. I am a mess.

Tonight was youth and I thought it was good. Our lesson was on forgiveness and we played a song by Wavorly called "Forgive & Forget" that was pretty good. I'm diggin our new curriculum, though I am struggling with how to present the gospel every week. They give you an example, but it always seems a bit stilted and awkward. Maybe I just need to work on it in my own words a little more. It is so important that the gospel is shared every week and that the kids know that it will be when they bring their friends. So pray for me on that accord!

Since our new pastor has come on board, I feel more able (or maybe willing) to share my faith and feel eager again to invite people out or to Bible study or what have you. I've been thinking about starting a Bible study at work but am not sure how to approach it. We have a really small office and I don't want to do anything that they would deem inappropriate. I may ask my coworker who I know is a believer and take it from there. Any ideas?

This weekend I will be doing some serious scrapbooking with Nan and I am really looking forward to that. I have a project I have been putting off that I think I can get done with some dedicated time. And Nan and I always laugh our butts off when we get together and scrap - so it will be great fun. I wish it was the weekend already!

Yeah, so my stupid back is killing me once again. I did nothing to cause this (other than, I suppose, having a rod in my spine) - it just started killing me yesterday after I watched the movie. I was not out hauling anything heavy or doing any ridiculous dance moves - I wish I was. At least then I could justify the excruciating pain I am in.

After my meeting this morning, I had the rest of the day to myself. I had a terrible headache, so I took a nap after lunch and then did some quick grocery shopping. Now I am working on final planning details for our women's retreat that is fast approaching and catching up on my movies that I've had forever from the service to which I subscribe.

Right now, I am multitasking and watching One Night with the King. I think it is somewhat well done but does not follow the Bible as closely as I would like. The story of Esther is one of my favorites and because of this, the movie has somewhat disappointed me. I have to say, though, that I enjoyed the narration and also the telling of the love story of the King & Esther...they definitely took creative license here but I always enjoy a good love story - especially one with a happy ending!

Next on my agenda is one I have not yet seen - can you believe it?!? Don't think I can multitask while watching that though, so it may need to wait.